Posted by: kathyhugs | October 11, 2008

Roller Coaster Rides

The last time I wrote I was definitely feeling the peace of God. What I need to remember is that a good time is usually followed by a crash. Little things kept reminding me of Tonia and I didn’t sleep very well for a few days. I had to fight to ground myself in God’s love every morning on the way to work. BUT I was able to pull myself out of the blues and my grief sneak attacks are getting further apart. There isn’t a day that I don’t think about Tonia but the sweet memories are replacing the shock, horror and grief that has overwhelmed me in the past. This past weekend I was at a student ministry retreat. I went horse back riding and as I finished the trail ride I was overwhelmed by missing Tonia. She loved horses and would have loved seeing me on a horse. Bittersweet. I am glad that life can still be enjoyed. Thank you God!



  1. Dear Mrs. Brundage,I am so happy that you can find the wonderful things about Tonia to remember each day. I know it must be so hard for you and your family especially with the holidays slowly approaching. I often find myslef listening to a son, reading a poem or just thinking of times when Tonia and I were together, laughing and having fun. It hurts so mucg because after high school, I thought I had lost my best friend forever. I should have stayed in touch with her because now I am regreting it. I try not to think of it that way, but I just can’t help it. I pray for her by day and by night everyday. I love you so much Tonia and the rest of the Brundage Family. Karla Dewey

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